29-2-08

Hm finally updating my blog. Sometimes I have so much stuff I want to write about but become wordless infront of the computer. Not sure if I'm tired out, really miss the days when I had more leisure time to myself, but seriously I think working will put me in a situation to grow up. Sometimes I just think too nice of ppl, plus I'm afraid I maybe easily influenced by others' opinions. Anyway I just pray that if I do change, I will note my behavior and to curb my fall before the end of the road i.e. I do not want to become a selfish inconsiderate person... but what constitutes being selfish? Saying no to others? When does it justify it and when does it become an excuse? Sigh I'm a confused girl whos wanting to be sure of decisions she make.

Anyway I remember when I had my hamster; I became this self-sacrificing person who, though sleepy in early morn, would spend time feeding hamster instead of tryin grab more sleep time. Worrying abt hamster when it is ill. I like it when my focus is not on me, cos' I do not need to grapple with my emotions like now. I would just shrug and concentrate on the hamster :P

To all those who are thinking of buying a hamster for me, pls don't. I do not have the time to commit now plus my dad swore to throw any hamster I brought home into the dustbin (He is really serious about it). Doubt I can go thru the pain of losing another hamster again anyway.
Heres to commerate my past 2 hamsters, may you rest in peace:

Pudding

Sapphire