Friday, February 29, 2008

29-2-08

Hm finally updating my blog. Sometimes I have so much stuff I want to write about but become wordless infront of the computer. Not sure if I'm tired out, really miss the days when I had more leisure time to myself, but seriously I think working will put me in a situation to grow up. Sometimes I just think too nice of ppl, plus I'm afraid I maybe easily influenced by others' opinions. Anyway I just pray that if I do change, I will note my behavior and to curb my fall before the end of the road i.e. I do not want to become a selfish inconsiderate person... but what constitutes being selfish? Saying no to others? When does it justify it and when does it become an excuse? Sigh I'm a confused girl whos wanting to be sure of decisions she make.

Anyway I remember when I had my hamster; I became this self-sacrificing person who, though sleepy in early morn, would spend time feeding hamster instead of tryin grab more sleep time. Worrying abt hamster when it is ill. I like it when my focus is not on me, cos' I do not need to grapple with my emotions like now. I would just shrug and concentrate on the hamster :P


To all those who are thinking of buying a hamster for me, pls don't. I do not have the time to commit now plus my dad swore to throw any hamster I brought home into the dustbin (He is really serious about it). Doubt I can go thru the pain of losing another hamster again anyway.
Heres to commerate my past 2 hamsters, may you rest in peace:


Pudding





Sapphire



2 comments:

val: i believe in me => said...

hmm, i think we all miss those days when we had time for leisure on our hands. work seems to zap our energy n maybe even our passion for life. maybe tats y its impt to stop for a break once in a while, spend time alone to just rest n listen to our inner voice.

u'll get a hamster n a puppy in time to come. be patient kay. however u may change, nva lose ur true self in the commercial world cos u will find urself drained n empty within. take out some time n $ to go on a holiday tis yr, to relax ur mind n body n be happy. =>

Anonymous said...

here's a moment of silence for your hamsters... don't be so blue la...

I guess everyone has to go thru some phases in life... so we just have to wait for it to pass, some way or another... go for some shopping therapy, manicure or facial, whichever works for you. :)

Maybe you want to take postgrad on again? not research la, studying takes ur mind off some stuff sometimes... why not if you have the potential :)

cheer up k :)take care