It has been 2 months of work for me... hm... now I spend my money more carefully because it is really "hard earned" money. Working is really different from school: there are expectations placed on you to excel in a limited time while for the latter, there are minimal expectations in place (mainly your own expectations of yourself) and ample time.
I have always been capable of chatising myself for not meeting my own expectations; what more with the expectations placed on one in the workplace... I'm afraid that I am not learning fast enough, that I may be blur, that I may make mistakes... the list goes on... It has been a challenging two months, but it may be just that I do not like the learning process. I want to get the results fast but the learning journey may be arduous. Oh well, after being spoon fed by the education system, its time for me to brace myself and try to learn independently.
Hm anyway I am not unfamiliar with the feeling of being down. In jc first year when passing common tests was a struggle and in uni where there are people who are so much cleverer. So *shrug* like that lor.... :P sigh just have to work hard.
Anyway I kinda think I'm abit of a workaholic. Hm nowadays clocking in 12hr workdays (no OT, actually my company do not force us to stay back. I just feel that I need to learn faster, so I stay back)... Actually I think I was a workaholic from young... eh ha...
6yrs old: I rem happily doing my homework. Then I would sometimes forget and carry my bag ard at home after I finished the homework.. (its after school)
Sec sch: Not much of a life except for gatherings and cca. Rem getting stressed while going with my family for dinner on wkend during exam period (I didn't want to go out for too long).
JC: Really no life. I can only rem mugging and mugging. But the workload was also the heaviest during this period.
When I was young, my idea of "having a life" meant chilling out at home, but after meeting Shicai, it included having time to go out with him as well. Well I don't want to sound like I'm rantng. Gotta sleep, getting more pimples :(
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Movies
I watched "Waitress" last weekend. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0473308/
Its about a woman who made great pies but could not escape from the misery in her life... The acting was great! And many commented that it was a pity that the director was murdered cos' the movie had a thoughprovoking plot and smooth flow.
This weekend I watched "Day Watch", part of a trilogy with the first called "Night Watch". Its worth watching if you have seen the 1st movie, else it may be alittle confusing. Its a mix btw matrix and LOTR, but totally original. Good vs evil, with shades of grey.... hm...
My family convocation photoshoot arrived from Serangoon Broadway. Mum chose a photo size way bigger than our TV (x2) and now we have not resolve which wall is big enough to hang it. Well at least I look ok in the photo, so even though the photo is gigantic, I still look ok hahaha... I'm gonna save up my gown to take with Shicai when he graduate. Personally, I think its vainity and a waste of money to take individual graduation photoshoot; I rather take with Shicai as a couple photoshoot. Personal preference la...
Nowadays I seldom bake in my home - after having a chance to use a proper oven at Shicai's house (as compared to my microwave's baking function) , I think proper oven yields much better results. Haha so although my baking was good from the start, with a proper oven its fantastic! *don't agree? ask shicai haha* So why bother with 2nd best when you have a best option? Problem is I don't really go his house so too bad.
I have not been blogging lately - only 2 reasons: either Im too busy or Im not really in a good mood. No point blogging down my stressed thoughts, I am just such a person. Work wise has not been easy, I still have alot to learn. Hm its intellectually challenging... Actually I don't think I am really matured; to be matured, you have to be a person able to shrug off others' opinions of you, to not try to seek others' approval and to not be easily daunted. Eh we needed to be pliable and obedient when we were young, but now its a reversal of our innate natural programming. Ha anyway needa stop my mumblings before I turn into a lunatic whom no one can understand :P
Its about a woman who made great pies but could not escape from the misery in her life... The acting was great! And many commented that it was a pity that the director was murdered cos' the movie had a thoughprovoking plot and smooth flow.
This weekend I watched "Day Watch", part of a trilogy with the first called "Night Watch". Its worth watching if you have seen the 1st movie, else it may be alittle confusing. Its a mix btw matrix and LOTR, but totally original. Good vs evil, with shades of grey.... hm...
My family convocation photoshoot arrived from Serangoon Broadway. Mum chose a photo size way bigger than our TV (x2) and now we have not resolve which wall is big enough to hang it. Well at least I look ok in the photo, so even though the photo is gigantic, I still look ok hahaha... I'm gonna save up my gown to take with Shicai when he graduate. Personally, I think its vainity and a waste of money to take individual graduation photoshoot; I rather take with Shicai as a couple photoshoot. Personal preference la...
Nowadays I seldom bake in my home - after having a chance to use a proper oven at Shicai's house (as compared to my microwave's baking function) , I think proper oven yields much better results. Haha so although my baking was good from the start, with a proper oven its fantastic! *don't agree? ask shicai haha* So why bother with 2nd best when you have a best option? Problem is I don't really go his house so too bad.
I have not been blogging lately - only 2 reasons: either Im too busy or Im not really in a good mood. No point blogging down my stressed thoughts, I am just such a person. Work wise has not been easy, I still have alot to learn. Hm its intellectually challenging... Actually I don't think I am really matured; to be matured, you have to be a person able to shrug off others' opinions of you, to not try to seek others' approval and to not be easily daunted. Eh we needed to be pliable and obedient when we were young, but now its a reversal of our innate natural programming. Ha anyway needa stop my mumblings before I turn into a lunatic whom no one can understand :P
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